Sigh.. sigh… sigh…….

The amount of self doubt I’ve been feeling lately is growing exponentially. The fear of graduation and the unknown plus the complete and utter failure that is the internship that I currently have is making me crazy/depressed. On paper, this summer was going to be great. In reality, nothing is going well.

I have never really been the girl who can just live and let live. I can have spontaneous moments or days, but when it comes to major life choices I will analyze the hell out of every possibility. My days are filled with pro/con lists; my nights are filled with worry.

I’ve been “passionate” about several different things throughout my college career. And the fact that my goals can change so much so easily makes me wonder if I really want any of it at all. Life has never confused me as much as it does now.

Yes, I’m quite aware that this feeling is “normal”. I understand that many soon-to-be grads feel this way. Especially those with a liberal arts major that doesn’t completely give them a definite career path (maybe I should have been an engineer? ha!) But knowing these facts doesn’t make this any less trying.

Please pray for me as I continue on this journey. God is the only truth that I have.

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Posted on June 15, 2012, in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. I could have written your post myself. I find myself resenting the people who are pursuing definite career paths. I envy them! I hope you find your way soon, or at least find happiness while deciding.

  2. You are going to be just fine. Taking your time to weigh your options is an smart thing to do. What ever choices you make will be the right choice for you and if you aren’t happy with it then change directions. Don’t become complacent in your choice unless you are truly happy. You are just stepping into adulthood and the possibilities are limitless for you. I will pray that your answers come, for prayer is always the best thing to do.

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