The older you get, the more and more marriage posts seem to pop up everywhere. And I don’t just mean friends getting married (even though that’s usually all I see on Facebook these days), I mean people posting blogs about marriage, tweeting marriage advice, giving you that sad pitiful look whenever you mention that you’re single…
I’m single and I’M PROUD, so there! hmph!
Well, most days anyway–Other days, I just sob and look at forever alone memes (just kidding!)
Instead of wondering why I’m alone, you should be proud of me! I refuse to settle for some raggedy excuse for a mate, or to date someone that I know I have no future with just because society is telling me that it is necessary. Yes, I’m in my twenties, yes, I’m attractive, and yes, I’m educated, and yes, I am single. It’s not the end of the world so stop looking at me as if I’m going to start crying at any moment because I don’t have a boyfriend/fiance/husband and stop asking me if I’m seeing anyone yet.
There are plenty of people unhappy in their relationships so wouldn’t you prefer for me to be single and loving life?
So I don’t typically share what I write, but I just feel like the blogging world is a safe place. (:
I admit it.
And I don’t want to let go of that fear
because the last time I did,
heartbreak came and pushed me into a sea of pain and despair.
I felt like I’d been throttled full blast into the depths of hell.
I hate that pain.
So I’ll stay afraid.
I don’t even want to ask to find out where your heart lies.
And I sure as hell don’t want to assume and make an ass out of
well, pretty much just me.
I can’t even fully admit to myself that I want you for fear that
that admission would just pay my admission back into that sea of hell
so I remain afraid.
In my mind,
fear is better than pain,
hope is better than rain,
so I’ll remain silent.
If things never change so be it.
I’ll be fine alone.
Maybe a little crazy,
and at times, a little lonely,
but I’ll be just fine alone.
Currently, I have no close platonic friendships. I don’t have any close guy friends that are completely unromantic; either we’ve dated or tried to date each other.I’m honestly not really sure how to make a male friend. I can’t be friendly without seeming flirtatious, and I feel like most men my age are always trying to find the next girl to get in their bed.
Call me crazy, but I just want to have a good guy friend again.
Each man I meet automatically tries to get me into bed, and I don’t know if that has something to do with me and how I’m acting or if that’s just the horny-ness of 21-24 year old men.
Sometimes I’ll tell them I’m only looking for friendship, and I’ll never hear from them again. Others still pursue me relentlessly. Even still, sometimes the breech of the platonic friendship comes from me, but hey, it happens (:
The question still remains: Is there such a thing as a platonic relationship? And if so, where can I get one?
Alright, I just wanted to touch on something that I’ve noticed lately: women allowing disrespect.
I’ve seen/heard comments like “All boyfriends cheat, you just have to accept that”, “Men will be men”, and “As long as he comes back to me at the end of the day, I don’t care who else he does”. Ladies, this is NOT acceptable. Comments, such as these, are merely excusing the horrid behavior. Realize your worth, and do not allow someone to disrespect you. You should wait for a man who will honor you and treat you like a queen. I know you’re thinking, what fairytale world does this chick live in? And I ask you to consider what I’m saying if only for a moment. Why should you be subjected to harsh treatment just to have “love”? Just to have someone to come home to at night? Is it really worth it if that someone doesn’t respect you, continuously sleeps around, breaks your heart, and abuses your trust? YOU ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT! Don’t let anyone make you think that this situation is the best you can ever get. Be confident, demand respect and truly be loved.